Numb

In my mind the choices Ive made felt right
Yet why is it that since Ive made them restlessness is all I feel at night

My intentions were never to cause anyone pain
Yet that's what Ive done and feelings of sorrow I did gain

They say good things come to those who wait
But should we really sit back and wait or take hold of our own fate

My body's in motion but my insides are numb
Did I really do the right thing or were my decisions dumb

One part of me wants to let it out and with my emotions start dealing
But the other part of me wants of my feelings to start concealing

What do you do when you feel stuck and like there's no right way to go
What do you do when the sorrow in your heart is all that your face will show

I can't hide the fact that my insides are tearing apart more and more each day
So I lay back and drink and smoke the pain away

But that's only a temporary solution
My insides are still numb and I'm adding to my body's pollution

Confusion

I feel so confused ...

Confused about the path in which my life will take
Confused about how love can end up so painful when it was once so great
Confused about his inability to be a faithful man
Confused to the point where my own thoughts I can`t even withstand

Confusion fills my head all throughout the day
Confusion has my actions unsure of which way is the right way
Confusion because of a man who himself is confused
Confusion since I am unsure if I am being used

My mind is bewildered
My heart is in pain
My soul is slowly dying
I am so sick of playing this game

I am so sick of being confused
When I know this situation is not my fault
Just so sick of getting played
Letting myself feel sad and distraught

It has gotten to the point where I cant even cry
My body just gets stiff, hands gets sweaty and heart gets numb
How many times have I been hurt by you before
Why even cry? Just pick myself up and to this pain not succumb

The confusion will not beat me
For I am stronger than this mess
It is time to move forward
Get my life back and towards something greater I shall progress

Taking A Stand

The whole time we were together
You were always doing your dirt
Never worrying about the fact
That I was the one getting hurt

Now for the first time
I have taken a stand
But how come I am the bad guy
And my actions you don`t understand

I tried to make it work
But you didnt seem to care
Because the love that you had
You thought it was yours to share

I was supposed to be your queen
Your one and only
But it was all a joke
And yours words were phony

My love will never change
But to be with you I can not do
Because when I needed your love
You were only thinking about you

You say everyone leaves you
Well maybe thats a sign
That from your old ways
You need to resign

Take this as a lesson learned
For future girls to come
Think about your actions first
And try not to act so dumb

Because you`ll end up all alone
With no one to love
The only one there
Will be our god above

Don`t take this wrong
I will still be by your side
Even if you cant see my love
You will feel it on the inside

Remember my words
And don`t take them in vain
I am showing that I care
Not trying to cause you pain