Numb

In my mind the choices Ive made felt right
Yet why is it that since Ive made them restlessness is all I feel at night

My intentions were never to cause anyone pain
Yet that's what Ive done and feelings of sorrow I did gain

They say good things come to those who wait
But should we really sit back and wait or take hold of our own fate

My body's in motion but my insides are numb
Did I really do the right thing or were my decisions dumb

One part of me wants to let it out and with my emotions start dealing
But the other part of me wants of my feelings to start concealing

What do you do when you feel stuck and like there's no right way to go
What do you do when the sorrow in your heart is all that your face will show

I can't hide the fact that my insides are tearing apart more and more each day
So I lay back and drink and smoke the pain away

But that's only a temporary solution
My insides are still numb and I'm adding to my body's pollution