Realization

There was a time where I thought my choice was a wise one
Yet as I look at you now I cant help but think that I made a mistake
You are truly an amazing man that has nothing but my best interests at heart
When I look into your eyes I can feel the love that you feel for me
As I lay in your arms I feel so safe and secure like no one and nothing can touch me
Even if something does go wrong I am sure that as long as you are by my side everything will be okay
And even if it is not okay in time as long as we stick together we will make it through
Maybe my fear of hurt or failure led me to run away from you
I made excuses for why things ended that honestly I don't think were the problems
It wasn't you that was the issue it was me and my mental road blocks
I don't know ...
But looking back now I guess the saying "you never know until you try" fits
I cant let my fear of failure stop me from living my life and being happy
So now I want to work out all of my little issues within myself and truly give you the love and compassion that you deserve
You are truly a wonderful man and I know one day you will be a great husband and father and provider and lover
From this second forward I promise to do my part in ensuring that we end up together and happily.
I truly do love you I just need to fall head over heels for you and give you the love you deserve.

Until next time.