Confusion

I feel so confused ...

Confused about the path in which my life will take
Confused about how love can end up so painful when it was once so great
Confused about his inability to be a faithful man
Confused to the point where my own thoughts I can`t even withstand

Confusion fills my head all throughout the day
Confusion has my actions unsure of which way is the right way
Confusion because of a man who himself is confused
Confusion since I am unsure if I am being used

My mind is bewildered
My heart is in pain
My soul is slowly dying
I am so sick of playing this game

I am so sick of being confused
When I know this situation is not my fault
Just so sick of getting played
Letting myself feel sad and distraught

It has gotten to the point where I cant even cry
My body just gets stiff, hands gets sweaty and heart gets numb
How many times have I been hurt by you before
Why even cry? Just pick myself up and to this pain not succumb

The confusion will not beat me
For I am stronger than this mess
It is time to move forward
Get my life back and towards something greater I shall progress